I always attract the "not right now" guys. The "I just got out of something" guys and the "I'm not ready for anything" type guys.
You know the ones that are emotionally unavailable, mentally unsound, and brokenhearted guys. The ones that put everybody in jail for another woman's crimes? Yeah, that guy... The ones that want to be up under me, sponging off my goodness and mercy, soaking up my strength that drains me of my energy, my good nutrients, my sound judgment making it impossible for me to love me fully.
Yet, I'm the one that gets him right for the next door prize. I help his mind get right, his emotions level and mend his broken heart. Then he's ready to take on the world and find his right now, his one, his I want to be in something and I'm ready for everything girl.
I give so much of myself to the not right now, the I just got out of something and I'm not ready type guys that I feel depleted. I feel like it will never happen to me or for me. That I will never get what I see, help to retrieve or help to relieve because I do so much for these type of guys.
I know that I have a lot of love to give. I know that when he does find me, I will be ready to give him what he needs, wants, desires and never thought he was missing. So until then, I will keep loving, keep hoping, keep pushing, keep being open for my right now, my I want to be in something and I'm ready for everything to find me type guy.
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