Lies

Its grounded in my imagination like embossed leather on a designer bag

Living in a fantasy like Alice in Wonderland 

traveling farther down the rabbit hole 

digging deeper and deeper into a make-believe world that never existed

With shades of blues, light pinks 

And misty colored clouds

Where Popsicles and lollipops are full of color and life 

And children's laughter can be heard in the distance

The sounds are nostalgic 

Almost euphoric

Like love..

The vision of love tempts me

Dangling in front of me 

begging to be enjoyed

Yet

It evades me

Teasing me as I attempt to grab it

Playing hide and go get it

Peeking out behind bushes

Lurking close by

Calling my name

Taunting me

Laughing as I come near

And then running away

love

The love I thought that was waiting for me once I returned

How foolish could I be

Like a sucker waiting for his favorite stripper to slide down the pole into his lap and eventually his bed

Like a spiders web that catches everything but prey

I came back with the hopes of eternal love like the flame that burns at MLKs grave 

I was homesick

I missed everything about this place

Everything that made me feel safe

My mother, my sister,  my girls

My peace

My safe place in the midst of my storm

It was no longer there or within reach

It was quickly shutdown

Like shelters after 6pm

Love like ours didn't exist

There was no rabbit hole to go down 

Only red flags and stop signs

That I finally started heeding

I had to grab a tourniquet

To stop the bleeding

Of my heart

The gaping wound brought 

tears to my eyes

And

I finally heard the bittersweet nothings 

that tasted like chocolate covered lemons

Was me uttering lies to myself

Me Comforting me

And

Me Soothing me

Trying to convince me

That love never dies

Right?

10/3/25