Wonderment

 I too wonder how you got here..

Trying to pull apart my defenses and sneak under the wall. 

Brazenly walking thru the door as if you belong.. 

...here. 

How did you get here is the song playing in the background.. 

Deborah Cox is so profoundly singing my thoughts unbeknownst to her and still.. 

I’ve asked myself that question a dozen times; for, this was suppose to be fun..

Let’s hang out, chill, fuck if we must but the keyword here is FUN. 

How did you get here is now synonymous to Don’t leave me Girl… 

Well, in your case Man but I couldn’t find the appropriate song to go with the sentiment.. 

You get the gest... 

How did you get here... 

Nobody's suppose to be here... 

I tried that love thing for the last time... 

Now I’m waiting for your call. 

Your early morning text, 

the sound of my name on your lips… 

the smile, 

the eyes 

and of course my favorite...

the eyelashes that flutter ever so sweetly when you’re sleepy… 

I didn’t want this to happen… 

Tried to keep it from happening... 

But yet, here you are... 

in my midst...

dropping bread crumbs like Hansel and Gretel...

leading me on a detailed, yet, melodic path as if you are my piped piper… 

…and all I keep hearing is...  

How did you get here… 

I don’t know...

Nobody's suppose to be here.. 

but I’m glad that you are… 

....whispering... 

I tried that love thing for the last time...

~aDr

Side B

Side B

It's funny how you don't see me until you do..

Makes me feel like Side B of a record..

My bad, some of yall don't remember records, albums or cassette tapes...

But I do.

No one played Side B because all the jawns were on Side A.. 

You would play the hell out of Side A

Everybody slept on Side B

Until you accidentally, unintentionally put the record, album or cassette tape on Side B

And then you sit back and listen to the words, to the melodies, and feel the vibe...

And you realize..

You fucked up..

Side B is the dopest side 

Side B had that one dope ass song that you played over and over until the record skipped..

You told your friends about the song...

Made them listen and they agreed it was dope

And even tho you loved the song..

You continued to sleep on Side B

Still playing the hell outta Side A

Until the record skipped and the tape popped 

Still wondering, searching for something that was in your face the whole time...

That you had your hand on, your ear to and heart leaning towards

Until you accidentally, unintentionally put on that record, album or cassette tape on Side B 

Then you sit back listen to the words, the melodies, and feeling the vibes..

You then realize that..

You fucked up...

Because I'm the dopest.... 

...Like Side B..

-aDr 

10/26/18

Peace to the Gods...

So a friend of mine passed a couple weeks ago and few of his friends are having a memorial for him tomorrow. These are times that I wish I was back in Jersey.

We lost touch when I moved to Georgia and reconnected maybe five years ago.. He shared a story about us that I forgot about and it completely changed my outlook. After that conversation, I began to move differently... the me now vs the me then started to clash. He woke me up. Gave me a verbal shake that opened my eyes to the rose colored glasses I was wearing. I thanked him for that..

I cherished our conversations. We're spoke twice a month.. He made me homesick..longing for the days of K-High when he would come up to the school and give me a hug or a nod (if he couldn't break away from the many that surrounded him).


He was the coolest dude I knew.. Had swag before swag was a thing.. His walk, his talk, his demeanor was mesmerizing and he always sucked me in as he did others.. I have no regrets about our friendship.. We talked about everything... He knew me since I was 14 and every time we spoke he made sure he mentioned the 14 y.o me and I appreciated him for recognizing her...


I haven't seen him in years and and now he's gone forever. I pray my friend is resting peacefully in the comfort and presence of his mom... I pray his girl and his friends has peace...


I love you friend... You will be greatly missed and I'm gonna miss our conversations...

Peace...

Lisha xo

We...

With love on my lips, I whisper your name
With a smile in my heart, I see your face
With lust in my eyes, I crave you,  long for you and.. In my mind, I'm fucking you
Dreams of sleepovers, sleep ins and mid morning snacks consume me
Thoughts of you coming to me makes me anxious
You are my unicorn, my elysium, my thoughts of grandeur
You are my hope, my love, my wish
I wish for dreams to come true
I wish for us to be true
To be fulfilled
To be loved in plain sight
I wish for you and me..
To..
Become we...
To become this..
To become...
Close



~aDr '17