Letting Go

Certain things remind me of you
Certain things make me wish for you
For us
But I know I can't hold onto a shadow, a memory, a dream
So
I'll keep a piece of you and me tucked
Outta sight
Until I get you outta my mind.
❤❤

Spit or Swallow?

I must look like the kinda girl that likes to swallow
I swallow the lies, the empty promises and unfulfilled dreams
Im on my knees with my head tilted back, mouth wide open
Waiting..
I wait...
For the ejaculated sweet talking, bullshit that spews from you like water from fire hydrants on a sweltering summer day in New York City...
Waiting..
I wait...
For the falsehoods and the untruths like a kid waiting by the window for an absentee parent that never comes
Waiting...
I wait...
For the tomfoolery and fuckery to commence
Like a commencement speech at a college graduation
I wait and then I swallow
Every drop that you feed me...
I wait and then I swallow
Every morsel of crumb that you give to me
Piecemeal
I wait and then I swallow
Anxiously because I am that type of girl that likes to swallow all Im being fed until
I can't take it anymore then I spit.
I spit out the lies, the bullshit, the empty promises and then I feed you the truth.
The truth is I want to be fed and nourished by you
Only if..
It is with love..
I spit back the hate and feed you love. A love so strong you have no choice but to swallow.
I spit back the empty promises and feed you assurance..Something that you appear to be missing..
I spit back the unhappiness, the insecurity, and the heartbreak and I feed you happiness, security and a mended heart.
A heart that beats to my rhythm that shows you no matter what you been thru or who hurt you that I will protect it from misuse....
I will feed you the nutrients you need to survive, to live, to love, to know that regardless of what you try to spit, I will swallow...
So... I guess, what I'm saying is...
I am the kinda girl that likes to swallow.....